Tuesday, August 3, 2010

A metamorphosis, Damascene conversion ....?

Well, this feels like the first day of my new life. After months and months of railing, and wailing, and torrents of self-pity, a metamorphosis has taken place, a Damascene conversion, the light at the end of the tunnel, call it what you will, hurrah!

Maybe it is because my health is improving after months of being under par, maybe I have at last grown-up, maybe it is the build-up of strength I have accrued from good friends, who tell me the truth, how I should pull myself together, how I am worth more than the personna of the bleating poor little me, oh yes. They have often told me what I did not want to hear - but buried within the trenchant advice, I have picked up on what I needed to know, and here I am - hopefully a mended and stronger person.

I salute you, all those good friends who have been there for me, told me to p ...off sometimes! On how I have come to appreciate you all. In my previous life, I was so unhappy, so buttoned up for years, that I did not realise how many good and kind friends I had, and whom I now treasure.

There is so much more to life, and I am ready to grasp it with both hands.

It really is interesting how the clouds suddenly lift, and there is a way forward.

I have much to do, and how I will enjoy it all with gusto.


Ferea said...

Oh, how glad your new post made me!!!!
I share your joy!
All the best


High Heeled Life said...

Yay!!! I'm so happy for you... I can't wait to read your new adventures!! ...HHL

Red Lipstick said...

Yay! So good to hear! I wish you all the best in life!

Trudie said...

Hurrah! I knew you'd get there! Good for you!! I love reading your blog and today's is one of my favourites. I have been in your situation and had my very own revelation/metamorphosis. Time the great healer plus friends and family pulled me through.

Onwards and upwards! Here's to the future, whatever it may hold! X

Ms. Pearl said...

So glad to hear it! You have SO MUCH to offer and now you can do it without that ex weighing you down in so many ways.

Anonymous said...

Great to hear it!
I wish you many, wonderful new adventures.

I know I've said it before, but I love reading your words and I think one of your exciting new projects should be writing a book!
Linda x

Giulia said...

I echo the others & I don't know you, but people do care. There are going to be ups & downs but more sustains ups or level, is the thing. Excellent news! xoxo

Make Do Style said...

Oh gosh I've been so busy haven't caught up with your posts for ages. Time and space is great at moving things on. It has been hard especially as you were so brave to choose you in the first place. Rawness over phew!